Lex i could have written your post! I would spend countless hours trying to figure out how he got "exactly what he wanted and life was great". Slowly i started to realize that none of that mattered. I knew the truth, i knew the reality of how his life truly is. There may be some outside changes you see in your exabf but who knows what's truly going inside and behind closed doors. Anyone can paint a pretty picture on the outside.
Keep the focus on you! Once i forced and i mean forced myself to do that good things are happening for me. My life today as opposed to a year ago today are such extreme opposites. Keep trudging through to the other side. You WILL make it and you WILL be so happy that you are out of the chaos and so much happier with your life.
No one could tell me a thing a year ago....today i truly believe. You deserve the world and that's what you will get.....keep the focus on you.
:ghug3