(((Lex)))
It wasn't you.
I know this hurts...been there, done that. I, too, felt envious at first, but eventually realized that everyone deserves to enjoy life...even if they hurt me and made me miserable! I was furious that he would do so well without me, after all I'd done for him and put up with. Then I remembered he didn't do anything that I didn't allow. It was hard to admit that, but it was true in my situation.
If he still has his old behaviors, it doesn't matter how much he makes or what he buys..he's still not going to be happy.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy