lexusgirl

I'm feeling really crappy about myself. Xabf is doing good financially. He has a great new job, that is paying him a lot. He just bought a brand new truck, laptop, etc etc. All the things he never would buy for himself when we were together. When we were together he was working a dead end job, and never tried to better himself, until after I broke it off with him.

I admit I am envious, as when we were together I paid for a lot of things, and we always took my car because his was such a POS. Now all of a sudden he is doing great.

I guess I expected him to go downhill and start to hit bottom, but since I left him he is doing a lot better. It makes me wonder if it was me...??

Why did he not want better for himself when he was with me? It just makes me so angry and hurt after he treated me so bad and all the things I did for him.