(((Paulos)))
Please try to focus on what you *can* do, not on what you cannot do.
I cannot write like that author either, nor any other author for that matter!
I always wanted to be a singer. Never had enough talent to do much more than the chorus in school, though, and now in the shower! LOL! So, I enjoy what I can, and it does bring me pleasure to sing to myself along with the stereo.
What are your talents? Focus on those and allow them to grow. Search out other areas of interest that you can develop. Indeed, if you want to write, take a writing class and see how it goes. You may not become Shakespeare, but, you might surprise yourself too!
Take it one step at a time, Paulos. You're doing great at the sobriety. So, it's a great time to start a new interest that will use your time positively. A new interest may be just the ticket to keep you on that path of sobriety.
Shalom!