Hey Mamasanta! Welcome!
As a former hole dweller, I welcome you to the fold! I think everyone here has been in their hole, hiding, but not able to escape from themselves. At least that's where I was living in my hole.
The funny thing is, I think I slipped into the hole years ago, and for some odd reason, as I got older, I'd just HURL myself into it on occasion. Seemed like it would be easier to live there, where all is familar, than venture out.
I'm glad I'm venturing now days. However, I still know that the hole is not far behind me, so I have to be careful!!
Hugs to ya, and again, welcome!
Honu