Congratulations on 4 months sober! That's huge. I know how difficult it can be. Don't let other issues take anything away from that accomplishment.
Be patient, work hard, and keep moving forward one day at a time. Everything will work out.
I had a bit of a tough day today and your post reminded me to appreciate where I am today compared to the day I quit drinking. I am a much better person today and I am sure that you are too.