I was absolutely convinced....
Quoting Hevyn....
That is how it was for me too..at a crossrad ...and it is also in How it Works in
Chapter 5 of the Big Book text of AA...
"We stood at a turning point..."
You are so (not) alone in this experience!
I stood there two years ago...after failing 6 times.
Don't give up....
Hevyn is right...
Proceed!