day 11
still here, still sober
yesterday, after work I went with some friends to a bar. I didn't drink, just smoked two sigarettes. Three now since I stopped, I really can't be bothered by it, cause I'm still sober. I know now that I can't do it all at once, still that is no excuse
Today I had another day off, so I went to an old friend in another city, about two hours by train from my town. It's nice to visit good people that keep a healthy lifestyle.
My stomach problems are slowly fading away, that is a good thing. I'm sleeping better, and I need less of it too. Still dreaming vivid, sometimes about smoking weed or doing other drugs, sometimes about running away from creatures or objects, and sometimes just a sensation of feelings and images.
the best thing is I realise that all these bodely sensations are just a temporary thing, they cannot and should not control my actions.