Hi daisyjen
No you are not alone. I myself just recently went through something similar like this on the PC with a man. I didn't set out looking for it just like you. It felt really good to get the attention that I so craved. But all this relationship did is end up causing me more problems. I was using it to escape my real life and causing me not to deal with my real problems with my A. And I am finally realizing I need to start working on myself and quit trying to escape my problems. And relying on someone else to try and make me feel good about myself. Its a slow process but least I am trying.
I really think its a good idea you are seeking out counseling with this also. I wish you all the best.
*hugs*