MrsMagoo

I snooped. Everyone told me I was co-dependant and driving myself nuts. One night I didn't do it. Wow, it was liberating!! I did it another night and it was still liberating.

I got an adrenoline rush every time I "scored" some evidence. Findig something justified and encouraged the search. If I came up empty-handed, I was practically disappointed. I had to question my motives because although I said if I found any more proof and I was able to bust him in any more lies - I was outta there. It didn't happen.

I "relapse" sometimes but I tell myself it is just so I don't get complacent. It's an addiction just like the addiction to our addicts.