"I'm an editor/proofreader at a place where everything is a mess and nobody cares, so I have to care even more and work even harder."
Your codie tendencies are probably what led you to this job in the first place!! Who else but a codie proofreader would take a job at a messy place that taxes you beyond your professional responsibility and you have to do the most work!!
Angelus - I agree with all the other posters above - and I just want to offer you encouragement of this as a sign of further progress in your recovery!! Once we lift the veil and start seeing things how they really are and start changing small things in ourselves - all of a sudden a multitude of cr*p that we HAD been putting up with becomes unacceptable! So keep up the good work on yourself!
Peace,
B.