Thanks for posting this. It's how I feel.
I really think I came close to depression, I was feeling bitter towards other people who were happy, I was utterly exhausted of the constant worrying of what ex was doing, would he sort out the things he should be sorting out, will he come home before 3am...
I did a lot of the crying in public too when people asked how I was.
Continue to look after yourself and put yourself first. And continue to read here.
hugs x