Hiya LovesmyHubby-
welcome to SR!
you said in your post:
"like he doesnt even care if he looses me or not."
please don't go down the road of taking his drinking personally. An alcoholic will always choose booze over EVERYTHING! Believe it. They are addicted. That's the nature of addiction. You have a clean sane brain and so you cannot ever imagine choosing alcohol over a person. But they are addicited and the compulsion to drink is so overwhelming that NOTHING gets in the way of their drinking.
So he may play games with amounts at different times if it buys him a little time in your eyes - but pay attention to his behavior over the long haul: he is still drinking. Don't listen to his words, believe only his actions, that way you stay firmly in REALITY and can avoid being manipulated.
In REALITY you can make decisions that best suit you and your children. Stck around! Keep reading and posting - you've found a great place to start helping YOU and YOU are the only person you can save in this situation!
Peace,
B.