Snap!
While I do not wish ill on myself, I sometimes think it would be easier to quit if things were worse! I am trying to look at "Why" and at long term implications which affect me.
*Recent research showed increased risk of breast cancer from 2 or more drinks a day which both my mother and grandmother had
*I calculated the financial cost...If I don't drink from today, I can buy a kayak at the end of Sept out of my current wine budget. If I donated my wine budget each month, many dogs would be saved from death. Or many guide dog puppies could be trained!
My current level of drinking goes against all my basic beliefs - importance of health, not wasting money, improving the universe (other than just by recycling my wine bottles!), creating stuff.
Current issue I am trying to resolve is my panic at what to do with the extra hours in the day I get it sober.