Honestly, hard to say because so much of my thinking was skewed. Many of my thoughts and words held no merit. I was easily irritated. I couldn't put my finger on why and would blame others, take it out on my loved ones. The problem stemmed from within me. I was broken and not ready to fix myself so I placed blame and hurt others. It isn't right, and I'm sorry for what I did. Try to remember that alcoholics are sick people with sick thinking. Half of what we say is drivel. Half of what we say comes from internal turmoil that we ourselves can't understand.