thanks guys you have made me feel like im not alone anymore. which is what i have been feeling. alone. i was so bad to help him but a year later i am finally coming to terms with the fact that he has to want to help him self. i love him very much and i dont want to end it but i will if things dont get better. he has ulcers that have made him colapse and be rused tp the er but thats not enough to scare him straight tonight i told him i was leaving tomorrow. he cried and said he would try and get help. but i dont know how much more i can take, its not even just about us now its about me watching him slowly kill him self, which i cant do