OMG what a dawg! That totally sucks and you don't deserve that one bit.
Keep this in mind, it is NOT your fault. It's all his, 100%. He's a pharmasict right? He's liscenced & he may lose it over this or at very best have to downgrade because he won't be allowed narcotic access.
Wonder if the lil girltoy knows exactly what kind of baggage she is getting into? She's in for some fun no?
Sometimes getting good & pissed serves a good purpose in carrying you through the initial days. I've been there.
Focus on you as much as you can, I know it's hard right now.
I hate drugs, they destroy families.
Keep your chin up doll, & remember you are not to blame.
Teggie