hey Paulos - sorry to hear it's still a rough go for you.
When I came off meds - I did it gradual ...
an only experienced feeling BETTER as it (the doseage) got lighter and lighter.
I had an overall GOOD feeling ...
and an inner 'knowing' I was doing the right thing.
I actually don't know *what* to say to you other than ...
I hope it gets better for you?
I mean, do you find youre interests are sharper doing this?
I am talking about things that the medication had interferred with the enjoyment of.
Like for me it was writing and drawing and the ability to listen to the radio.
I don't mean yicky top-40-buy-this-and-that-like-a-sheep-radio -
I mean NPR ... like news, people reading books, long documentary type shows.
That's what happened with me.