My kids father and I had been married 3 years. We bought and sold 3 houses during that time, and had finally moved up to a brand new beautiful home.
He was an alcoholic. He was extremely abusive physically and mentally.
Let me shorten this.
One day a coworker of his came to my house. He said the cops had come by and arrested him and could I go to the jail to bail him out.
I go.
I ask what he's charged with.
Rape.
Huh?
RAPE!
I remember that moment. The lady police officer looked at me with total disgust in her face.
This poor woman was beaten to a pulp and lost hearing in one ear! We spent every single penny we had to get him the best of the best lawyer in the state.
He got off on probation. He was the best person on earth after that. At least for one year. He got drunk one year later, and nearly killed me.
I left him and never looked back.
Fast forward a couple of years.
He moved away. He lives with his mom and sister.
He breaks into a mobile home and beats the mother half to death, then rapes her 17 yr old daughter.
All I can say is how very thankful I got away from him when I did. I could be dead by now.
He is now serving a life sentence. He's been in prison for 25 years.
I am completely ashamed of him and all the history that comes with him. So, I can certainly understand why you're feeling the way you are.