Ah, try not to beat yourself up about this!
It happens, I've done it a million times!
I think I'm the only person who's been at SR for about 2 years that's still w/their A
not true. Not even close.
Sometimes, staying and listening to 'how horrible I was to him' was easier than trying to believe otherwise. Letting go of him was as hard as grabbing onto myself.
Hugs