(((Chloe)))
Sometimes the hardest part of any situation is just making the decision that is right for you and your children. There are no easy choices, but there are healthy choices and removing yourself from the front row seat of the chaos drama is a good start.
Whether you decide to leave forever or just for a while until you regain your balance, is a good start.
Sometimes it's good to just form a plan, whether you actually take the action or not. Having a safe plan helps us emotionally, just knowing we have alternatives can ease the pressure of feeling "stuck" in a bad situation.
My heart and prayers go out to you and your children.
Hugs