(((Paj))) I know how you feel too. As you know my exabf is about to have a baby with his ex that he left me for. It's weird, cause i am having the same kind of day as a few of us here and it's been a long time since i've been feeling this crappy!
It will pass, it always somehow seems to! And you know what chaos someone else is going to end up with and know that you are doing the right thing and want such a better life for you and your dd. I think we tend to create these little happy lives our ex's are having when in reality it's probably not the case but it's easy to forget that
:ghug3