I never married my ex. I wanted too, we talked about it and were making steps toward that goal - I thought. We shared a house together with mortgage payments etc. I really believed I was beginning the rest of my life with him.
Now I know that for a large period of time, he wasn't making the same commitment I was. He talked about marriage to me, but always said when we are financially stable, but then we never could be because he couldn't hold a job or get his drinking together.
It took me while to wake up
Lily xxxxxxxxxxxx