I spent 5 straight years relapsing, my last relapse lasted 5 years, I drank every single day, no matter what, not that I wanted to, the thrill of drinking had been gone a very long time then, I had to drink to function.
I was given a moment of clarity, I saw the next year of my life in fast forward vivid detail if I continued to drink, in a years time everything dear to me in life was going to be gone and I was going to be left with me and my beer....... then a slow death from alcoholism.
When I had that moment of clarity I was in total shock!!! I had no idea how to quit and stay quit, hell I could not even go longer then 12-14 hours without having to drink! I was lost, all of my answers had failed, I was unable to stop, I was scared to death I was going to die!!!!
I remembered a number on the back of my insurance card, it was the Drug & Alcohol Abuse hotline......... I was finally able to admit to my self......... I NEED HELP, I CAN NOT DO THIS ALONE!!!!
Doctor-Detox-AA-Steps-HP-LIFE!!!!!!!