Thanks, i understand better now. But i guess my question would be, if you are not really together and are able to see others than why are you so adamant about getting in touch with him? Isn't he possibly doing what you agreed upon within your relationship? Just wondering...
If it were me, i would ask myself why i wanted to be with someone part-time and not find someone that was completely there for me and vice versa. I know it's hard, i was there too at one time but i guess me having NO contact saved alot of added anguish.