I was a speaker type convention once. Afterwards I went and asked them why I used only when bored, not cuz my life was a mess and they told me that I needed to get out and help someone.
right now I am helping a blind lady from my church, I am attending meetings, and I am reaching out to newcomers.
I think what helps me is getting outside of myself and giving to others. It makes me excited, it makes me feel worthwhile and it keeps me busy.
just a thought.... blessings, Sheila