Originally Posted by
chiynita 
Money sucks. My one and only trigger.
If I could survive being broke the rest of my life I would be cured.
Yeah money is a huge trigger, however,.....
It still wouldn't be a cure being broke....
I have a lot of my dealers that would love to give Vic free stuff...
Oh yeah they would do anything and everything to get Vic started again...but it isn't on them it is on me.
Money, friends, jobs, no jobs, emotions, deaths, wife, no wife, etc
We can stay clean no matter what. It isn't easy! If it was so easy Trish there would be a heck of a lot more people in recovery than not.
I know a lot of people say it does get easier, maybe so...but that hasn't been my experience. My experience is the more that I have relapsed the harder it is for me to get any amount of time under my belt (so to speak) and it is all that much harder to keep it under my belt.
I will be celebrating 2 years on the 25th of this month....
If I am lucky enough......
but those days don't matter what matters is what am I going to do today to stay clean....
Well today, I am going to remind myself, that I would rather live than to die...
Blessings to ya and hope we both stay clean today.....