Hey Scooba,
It sounds like you're on the right path. We all know how hard it is, and especially at first. It's the toughest thing I've ever done in my life. And I've led a pretty strange life with quite a few tough obstacles.
When I was first getting sober, I absolutely was not able to do it on my own. I'm not saying you're not. Just that I wasn't. I found that what switched things around for me was 1) prayer, 2) an outpatient program, 3) AA and 4) coming clean with my family. All of those combined, pretty much on the same day, made my sobriety "stick." That's what it felt like. It didn't make it easy by any means. But it made it possible. For all my trying and trying and trying, I couldn't do it before I combined all of those elements.
I'm glad you're here and that you are sober today. That counts.
- MLE