A little wine has always been my "gateway" drink right back to the bottle full time. I usually start by saying, "I'm not going to drink any hard liquor, just a glass of wine before bed." And the next thing I know, I'm guzzling about 3 glasses before bed. After that, I need a bottle per day then on to the big bottles of cheap wine. After that, I opt for something stronger b/c I figure it's taking too many calories to get a buzz. By the way, I'm a recovering anorexic as well... So, then right back to my drink of choice; vodka mixed with something that's zero calories...
I hope you find the right path for yourself....