It's weird, really. I don't want him back & it's very hard to tell him I love him, because I just don't feel it like I used to. I'm not even sure I do at all anymore. How can I? I never knew the man. But even though I feel this way, there's a part of me that doesn't want to see him with anyone else either. Maybe because I was the one who was there by his side for 5 yrs holding him up (or trying to) It's like what CatsPajamas said about the new wife getting to experience the good side of him that she didn't. My children & I suffered, then someone else get the reward? (Or something like that)