Thank you all for the prayers! I really needed them.
Today was a little better. I held it together at work, although I was really lost on an assignment. I turned in my first draft, so I hope the partner doesn't rip it apart and regret hiring me. I'll find out in the morning.
I went to my usual therapy tonight and cried my eyes out. None on the train today, so that is a step in the right direction. My therapist asked if I had been sleeping, something she never asked before. I told her 5 hours a night tops. She said she could tell.
I don't know up from down and I'm trying to figure out how to get some balance, any balance, right now. My therapist asked me why I can't cut myself some slack on anything. I don't know why. I hope I can do that soon.
On a lighter note, my best friend in Chicago sent me some vases that he was getting rid of while redecorating. He also sent along chocolates from a place in Chicago that is to die for that we discovered when I was there in February. Chocolate makes everything better, at least today.
(((Everyone)))