Yes as toughchoices says....fall apart a bit, allow yourself too for a while if you need.
Then up you hop.... dust yourself off from the fall....and off you go. Life is difficult sometimes....VERY difficult but you just keep taking one step infront of the other and it will get a little easier each day
I wish you peace in your journey along the way....and just keep posting here for the tremendous support.
PHIZ :0)