All I can say is to echo what the others have said. Very good advice and suggestions they've given you. I quit drinking cause I was afraid my daughter would move out if I kept on drinking. I hadn't been sober too long before I realized I really quit for ME. I wasn't just hurting my daughter, I was killing myself. And I can't be a good mother if I'm dead or disabled.
I also made a list of all the things I hate about drinking. Anytime I get 'the urge' to drink I read the list. It's kept me sober for 27 days and the longer I am sober, the less I want to drink.
Keep coming back. THis is a great safe and loving place. It's helped me a lot.
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