Hey there Lostguy, welcome to SR, its great to see more fellas joining! I feel for your pain right now, keep posting and reading here, and some time soon , you can rename yourself 'Foundguy'!
Originally Posted by
Freedom1990 
Just my opinion-abstinence only does not equal recovery.
Got to jump on this band wagon, it took me many months of my xabf abstaining for me to finally learn this lesson. Sobriety now means so much more to me than abstinance. I know that for him to fully recover, he needs to work on his inner self, his issues/wounded self etc.
This applys to me too, I have been up and down over and over in the past because I abstained from those things that caused me inner conflict. Now my recovery includes working my 'steps' too.
I am certain you will find much inspiration and joy here Lostguy, I am glad you have joined!
Love Lily xxxxxxxxxxx