I see... well I can't tell my doctor about my huge alcoholism otherwise I may lose my Xanax which is what keeps me sane throughout my days. As for the meds Lamictal and Risperdal the Lamictal helped me to at least eat and walk around again, but the Risperdal I feel is making me worse... but it's one of the medications best suited for OCD/Autism treatment so I'm giving it time, but ... sigh it's just so overwhelming... I only hope I'm not losing it.