Your right. I knew going into this thread that i'm beating a skeleton of a dead horse lol!!! Uggghhh like i said, it's me, all me! I know what you mean about sending out good thoughts and i 99.9% of the time am a genuinely caring and loving person and not caring about him in the slightest but i think that .1% has his name on it recently!!!
It's just because i haven't felt totally comfortable in my situation and just trying to get there with or without someone else by my side. Thanks Anvil for keeping me in check, i appreciate it more than you know.
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