I got cut off when writing this thread. I want to know why I cant let go. I do absolutely love this man. And oddly enough I completely know what I am in. I have never thought in my life I would be in such a predicament. He has really been truthful and honest with me since the begining when we decided we were just having "fun" but we fell extremley hard for one another. Depsite every risk I stand with this, it all feels worth it. I just feel so alone. No one understands this, and I dont even want to try and explain it to others.