THank you for your replies. It helps just to know I'm not alone. No, I won't drink, I won't mess up my 19 days sober, just absolutely petrified and even feel afraid of the feeling of fear. Does that make any sense?
No, no gym membership, too broke for such luxuries. I do walk the dogs once sometimes twice each day. I need the fresh air and sunlight and exercise. But something about today is 'different'. I feel paralyzed with fear and nervousness. Can't concentrate or sit still for long.
Thank you for your help.
I'm not so paralyzed with fear that I can't recognize friendship when I see it!:ghug3