why is it getting more difficult
It seems this is getting more difficult as the days past. Or is that I´m noticeing the things that I do or think. Before I was just pushing through each day with the same thoughts going around and around in my head. (desperation, suicide, trying to get through another day, performing each task as if it was an unclimbable mountain, my safe place was my bed.)
I listened to:first step by sandy beach.. twice.. I know I´m an alcoholic and I need people. and I have huge trust issues.
I guess thats all I need to know for today.