Thank you all. I am feeling calmer now and getting ready to go to bed. I am going to skip the journaling I usually do because I just feel too raw. And I'll do some light reading and have a cup of herbal tea. Take care of myself. You are all right that the emotions have been there but just not accessible and now that they are present and apparent, I am scared. But sadness is nothing to be afraid of right now. I am safe. And I am sober.
Thanks all. Good night.