It was my self-will that failed to keep me sober. It was the same self-will that made me feel embarrased to have well, a weak self-will. And it was yet the same self-well that fed my alcoholism and kept me drinking.
Eventually I saw the common denominator, my self-will.
In order for me to stay sober, I had to change my approach to getting sober. AA showed me how to do it. I stopped relying on self-will, and instead did my best to follow the will through my Higher Power.
AA can show you the path to being sober and happy. It is you that has the choice if you choose to walk it. Good hiking!
Tom