Not embarrassed at all! It's beyond my control so therefore I need not be embarrassed.
There was a time when I wouldn't let go and thought I could handle it. There were a lot of embarrassing moments then. Not now!
I did a lot of damage in the past. There were a lot of things I wasn't proud of. All Alcohol related. Part of the amends process to society is my ability to control whether it will happen again or not.
To the contrary, I feel pretty good about myself.