Best,
Thank you too for your response. Yes, I am still embarassed but I'll work through that. It's funny that you make that point because a lot of times, I do hear people say.... yeah, i wish i could stop or i've said that a million times i hope i do it or i dream of a world without alcohol.
The thought of lying in bed over the weekend with a killer hangover makes me want to scream....But the thought of not having alcohol for the rest of my life makes me scream. I think that's the addict in me thinking that and I hope the further along I get the easier and the more i will understand this all.