Funk, I know this has to be hard, but it sounds like a really good long term thing for Rain. And for you. Kinda like Book siad. There was so much going on with my AH at the time of our childs birth that somehow my brain has blocked much of that time out and I am really missing out on some of the memories that should have really stuck with me. Hopefully you will be in enough peace to cherish those times and make great memories for yourself. Take care of you!