Hi Hideorseek,
Welcome to SR!
I've found this forum to be a very special place for support. I joined the forum 23 days ago, and so far have relapsed into drinking on only 2 of those 23 days. For me, that's an absolute record! (Virtually all of 2007 for me was a painful mess caused by my daily drinking). I'm still struggling but determined to keep at it.
Good to have you here, Hideorseek. Hope you keep coming back and keep posting.
All best wishes
Paddington