Hello all.
I've been dealing with a lot of depression in early recovery, and unfortunately I'm perpetually stuck in early recovery thanks to a strong proclivity to relapse. That said, I've got a good program now, 3+ months sober and working steps.
However, I can't move past the mistakes and consequences of my bottom last summer. I spent a lot of money and had even more stolen from me (when drunk and drugged), I lost my fiancee and apartment, and I almost lost my job.
I can't get my mind off the money. Even though I'm financially OK and employed (and very lucky in that way), I can't forgive myself for pissing away so much of what I worked so hard for.
I know we've all lost a lot in our addiction--I'm hoping you can share some tips for moving past big losses and getting on with life.
Right now I'm drowning my sorrows in smokes and fast food and getting nowhere fast
Thanks.