I'm so frustrated I want to cry but can't release. Feeling so 'unreal' and disconnected the last couple days, being sick with a stomach ailment isn't helping either. I haven't had a drink for a week and should be getting things done that I'd been neglecting but can't stay focused long enough to do anything and too sick to do it anyway. A grey rainy dreary depressing sick day. Being sick makes me more depressed cause of not being able to even sit up for too long and too restless to sleep.
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me??