Ok, bipolar. Alcohol is very unstablizing for people with bipolar disorder. So, it will take some time, but, in time, you'll begin to feel a bit more stable again.
Drink lots of water. Eat well. Try hard to keep regular hours of sleep and waking hours. Those things are absolutely necessary for people with bipolar disorder. And you probably did none while you were drinking right? It's ok. Start tonight. Yes, fresh again. Each moment is a chance to start again.
It's good you've come here and you are writing out what is going on. Please continue to do so. It's healthy for you. And know that we're here to support you as you work your way through this difficult time.
Remember, it *will* get better. Have faith.
Shalom!