Least, I'm at the same place. Complete hoplessness. I havent' been this depressed in years, but at the same time, I know that depression is something that you CAN come out of. It is a treatable illness. I pray to God to give us the strenght to come out of this. I know alcohol only makes it worse, but we don't really care when we are depressed, do we? We are just looking for an excuse, any excuse, to stay down.
And the family members who don't understand....It is so frustrating. Very few people understand mental illness ya know. My folks, they have never been alcoholic or depressed in their lives, all they do is pester me to get a job when I can't even get myself to take a shower. It is so unfair. But like I said, we will come out of it eventually, it will just take time and work.