Hi Kerry,
Thank you for the post and good work on the 5 days. The critical foundation of my recovery is to always always always remember - I am an alcoholic. I will never ever be able to have a drink. I give up on that notion. I had to keep testing that proven knowledge, worse each time until I was at the point of mental breakdown. Now, I do have my low moments but that's all they are - moments. I feel free most of the time.
Right now, you are doing the very best that you can. Keep working hard!